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Dear Inner Guru


Take me to a hammock, well-supported by two strong trees, in a secret destination.

Let there be no clocks, no watches, no TV, no radio; no news bulletins, no routines, no fixed mealtimes.

Vanish the engines of the modern world. Halt the wars, the greed and the destruction and the pain wrought in the name of power and progress

Tell me the weather will be what it will be but that I am safe. Make me breathe – properly breathe so I may feel the power in my breath and I may blow away old stress in my lungs.

Give me air, give me water, give me sunlight. Demand that I list what else it is I truly believe I need or deserve from life other than air and water, food and shelter. Let me carve a heart on a tree as my list. Allow me to believe I’m worth a little love.

Make me close my eyes and listen to the breeze and how it moves the things around me. Let me open them again only to look at clouds and birds and flickering leaves.
Tell me now is what matters. This is not about the times gone or times to come.

Cut the strings of the false hammock holding up my life, that I might turn off the chaos, mute the panic, drive out the urgency.

Now show me a space for calm to fit neatly where anxiety usually reigns, and pass me the book I could never before quiet my mind enough to read.

Teach me that peace is held in a hammock between two trees, not strung together by past battles and future fears.

Anxiety is disabling. It fills your head. It saps your strength. Often it is non-specific – it is a physical and emotional block. Sometimes it creates a whirlwind, and you’re trapped inside begging for peace. When the world can’t understand, can’t give you peace, you have to try to search for fixes of your own. 

I’m not at all religious but I do believe there are spiritual ways of asking for help and I do believe we have more answers than we know inside us. This is me, asking myself to help and giving myself some answers 

Joined up thinking 

I’ve got a real “the Nation didn’t speak” kind of feeling today.

It’s more of a “the spin spoke”, “the lies spoke”, “the laziness spoke”, and “the ignorance spoke” mix of feelings. 

I watch quite a lot of TV. I like ordinary stuff and as well as gritty dramas, I like observing real people and watching their reactions to things. I watch a lot of BBC news and I see how people are being fed certain messages and information and I see vast swathes of crucial stuff that is completely omitted while pointless banal stuff is repeated until we are convinced it means something.

I watch a lot of what I call well-produced crap on TV and I know millions of other people watch it too. 

People are not as autonomous as they like to think they are; they are lazy and they ignore information that doesn’t sit well with them. We often grab at stuff that relieves our own guilt. 

Most of us don’t see how politics works and is completely connected to every part of our lives. Most of us aren’t given enough reasons regularly or consistently enough through the media to see how we are all connected and responsible socially or to give a stuff about what we are doing to nature and the planet and its fragility. 

Most of us weren’t given the kind of education that gives us the opportunity to bullshit spot or seriously question systems of people in powerful positions.

Today’s election results don’t surprise me. I am not shocked. I am not taking to my bed in despair. I hear the things people say, I knew it was coming. I continue to feel disappointed that it’s all about personality, power, selfish wants (and not even needs on the whole), short-term rewards for only a very few and lies, lies, lies and more dammed lies 

Before you vote… 

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: I think most people don’t actually think what they think they think. They get stuck in tired discourse and get too lazy to revisit their brain and think about why they’re saying what they are saying. Patterns of words tumble out like quotes learned for an exam and not as the result of any proper contemplation. 

Challenge your own jargon and make sure it really is relevant and original, really makes sense and isn’t just a bunch of rhetoric. 

Think about the future. Think about where you want to live – as a whole -and not just your own individual selfish wants. If you’re thinking only about yourself on the day you vote, you’re probably getting it wrong. If you can’t give good, original reasons for the way you’re choosing to vote, you’re probably getting it wrong. If you can only give negative reasons for the way you’re choosing to vote, you’re probably getting it wrong. 

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